For some reason while I was driving back up to school and doing my volunteer work I thought it was ok to not communicate with Justin and Tara fully and tell them this is what I had been planning on doing all summer long. First of all I wasn’t being responsible myself to check e mails from my school saying what days this volunteer work would all be happening. I told them that I was driving up to school on a certain day and they were cool with that then I told the I had this volunteer stuff going on for four days…Lets just say they weren’t too thrilled with me when I told them this. Work that was my responsibility was not getting done like it needed to.
I’m sharing this with you guys to show you that I have not been perfect in this journey by any means. But just because I’ve messed up a few times I’m not throwing in the towel and saying I can’t do this anymore or that I give up. No, each time I mess up and get in trouble its a re evaluation for myself to think ok why did this happen? What did I do wrong and what am I going to do from now on so that this doesn’t happen again?
I still have some bad habits that I’m trying to get rid of and I guess I never really was forced to drop them because I wouldn’t stick with things for very long or I would get away with it. That’s not the case anymore. I got to drop these old habits become responsible and take care of things myself. I got to communicate better and get crap done!
If it’s any consolation, I’ve dropped the ball with Justin before too, so you’re not the first one. ;-) I know it feels like all the air gets let out of your body and you suddenly feel about the size of a gnat, but from that feeling you can draw inspiration. You can use that frustration to fuel your action to become a better person.
It’s difficult, and painful, and annoying, but its also one of the fastest and best ways you can quickly grow into an amazing person so embrace these times for what they are: opportunities. :-)
Mark, I’m glad I’m not the only one! And that is a great description of what it feels like! lol I really like that you look at a situation that isn’t necessarily the best and you make it an opportunity to grow and progress. Very great advise..thanks!